blankBeen months since I log into LJ.
Lots of changes have been taking place.
1) N going into NS.
2) Me getting back to work. The last time I work was like...9 freaking months ago -.- WTF.
3) Semester 2 is starting in 2 weeks time.
many many many more. I guess these are the more significant ones.
Okay bye. I don't think I'll come back to LJ unless I want to have locked post :)
- Enough
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naohfi- July 22nd, 2010
annoyed
When I said enough, I meant it. Haven't you realise that I didn't text you as much as I did?
Didn't you realise, that things changes from time to time.
I've been appreciating every little thing that you do. Be it is bringing me out for movie, accompanying me for dinner or whatever shit. But it came to me that you never appreciate me. I know I haven't been doing much, but I've been giving a lot in this relationship.
I tried my best to please you in every way. I tried my best to be available whenever you need me. But it seems like your "hot and cold" attitude is back.
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I keep quiet from every single thing that I didn't like, just to avoid fights with you. But you, did nothing but to continue with your bullshit. You knew I didn't like you giving girls you've barely known your number, still you gave. You can send me home, and talk to girl on the other hand. Don't tell me you did not see the change in my face. Don't tell me you didn't sense the sarcasm when I talk to you about girls you have on your contact list.
Things that you hide from me, I didn't question. I don't know if its because you don't want me to know, or you are afraid that I know about it.
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I've been chasing you for 7months, and its time for me to stop now. You wanna be the winner in this game, I let you win.
- Numb.
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- naohfi
- May 3rd, 2010
numb
I realised I totally forgot about my LJ. Untill I saw that someone actually view my LJ for the past few days.
Okay, so this is for the unknown person who have been checking out my LJ.
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I'd say life isn't great. Except for one fact that I've got great family members and friends around.
Past 2 weeks was crazy, enough for me to write a novel.
You said you wanted me to stay, and when I have decided to turn back, you've chosen to walk away. That's why I always say I don't know what you're thinking.
You never care a thought about me, you always take in what other people say -.-
&for goodness sake, I did not initiate because of time. It's because you never showed that I was your priority when I've always put you first.
And you did not put in any effort for this relationship at all.
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Enough of saying, because it'd not help me in any way. I don't know if I'm supposed to feel angry, happy, or sad. TOTALLY NUMB.
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Looking forward to Chalet on Friday! All the awesome people in my life are coming, and I'm going to have fun because I deserve to.
(I suddenly thought of everyone who have been asking me what present I want. &....you all know what I need the most now ): )
Very very very tired of life, and I want to get home now.
I shouldn't let you fuck mind me any more.
- (no subject)
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- naohfi
- March 21st, 2010
awake
5am in the morning and I'm still wide awake. I'm suppose to wake up at 11 later for performance, which also meant that I'm left with 6hours of sleep. But looking at it, I can only sleep at 7 in the morning. Ah weird me.
I should get my body clock back to normal before school start, before I start being late for school everyday again -.-
Speaking of school, I wonder where can I check my results. I HOPE I pass all modules, I meant. Who would want to repeat some stupid module. Moreover, when it's not related to my course -.-
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Okay, fight with N is just over. &I feel great. I know I said I wouldn't give in, but it's really hard. After Emily's encouragement, I actually took the courage to send him a message. It took me 5minutes to press the "send" button, and I literally jumped up when he replies.
Not expecting him to apologise, but well. I wouldn't say it is entirely my fault. So, HAHAHAHA. He should apologise.
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Okay, 15 minutes have past. I really do not know what to do.
&Baby is not online. It's either he's not home from work, or he's asleep.
Okay. I shall watch my show and get to sleep soon.
- Insecure.
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- naohfi
- March 11th, 2010
weird
I'm sorry, but I feel insecure. Please tell me what's wrong. Tell me what's happening.
It's easy to sweet talk, but action speaks louder than words. I can say, You meant everything to me, even if you doesn't . Get what I mean? Sometimes, just speak what's in your mind.
Not avoiding.
You make me feel like giving up straight, because I just don't know what you're thinking. You're hot& cold. You make me feel as though you want to give up, but just doesn't know how to.
Maybe, I'm just sensitive. Because of your past. If I'm wrong, I'm sorry.
- You can't have the best of both world.
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- naohfi
- February 24th, 2010
confused
Sometimes, I just don't want to expose you. But well, I'm smart enough to know what's happening. I'm just an option to you, you can have her as well. When I'm away, at least you have got the other option as well.
When you said you didn't want to help, why even bother to be on the phone for an hour or more? The main concern was actually your friend, but I guess you guys had fun talking to each other right.
You know her motive, you knew her well enough. But still, you chose to gave in. You shun every conversation about her, it's all because you couldn't take in any of the fact, or you're guilty?
I'm sorry to say, but I'm beginning to doubt all the things you're saying.
Don't tell me you need me when you're on the phone with her. Did you tell her the same thing? I really wonder.
All I can do now, is to keep quiet and fight this on my own. I'm not going to give up, &I will not let her bring me down.
Untill, I haven't told you that she lies. Because I know what reaction I'm going to receive.
Prove that I'm wrong, will you?
- (:
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- naohfi
- February 13th, 2010
high
SHE BANGS SHE BANGS!
I love my bangs so much now that I want to have it for the rest of the year. MAYBE, this is going to be my hairstyle for 2010! (:
hee hee hee
Oh so well, holiday is finally here. Yes, I might just 'nua' this whole of 2 months, but well I think I do deserve this break. After mugging for this whole week, I'm pretty much satisfied with myself.
At least I don't give up and absent from any paper you know.
- UT3
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- naohfi
- February 4th, 2010
- stressed
Like finally, I've decided to get back to LJ. Practically because I can lock my post here.I'm in school library now, trying so hard to get my chemistry right.
Problem9 kills me straight, I don't even have the time to shout for help. Come on, Shit this life.
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Right after Friday's test, I swear I'm going to play till I drop dead. I'm going to shout like nobody's business. The school owe me this.
Okay, Back to study!
